vicious cycle

I have been learning recently just how completely God is sufficient for me. About how he is all I need and should want. It has been rather painful but not... in a despairing way -- in a growing way. I see old ties and strings that are attached to the things of this world and have to sever them. I am learning how to live a life "hidden in Christ." It is hard when I have been living my life in the world and am used to being attached to worldly things.

At the moment, though, sabotage is the name of the game. I just can't seem to shake destroying every single one of my relationships all in the name of keeping them.